What a Trip to Japan Taught Me About Letting Go (A Recovering Perfectionist's Story

I am writing this from a hotel room in Osaka, Japan.

I am here chaperoning my son's eighth-grade school trip — a group of middle schoolers, their parents, tour guides, and more drama than I have words for. I don't speak Japanese. I didn't plan the itinerary. And somewhere between our first hotel and our second, one of the kids we're traveling with left his laundry in a drawer.

This is Episode 224 of Ending Physician Overwhelm — and it might be one of the most honest ones I've recorded.

Because here's the thing: I'm a recovering perfectionist. And travel — real travel, the kind where things go sideways and you can't control the variables — is one of the best mirrors I know for seeing where those old habits are still running the show.

Pillar 1: Asking for Help

Physicians are trained to be the expert in the room. We figure things out. We manage. We do not need to ask.

And then you arrive in a country where you cannot read a single sign, the train ticketing system requires downloading multiple apps and manually transferring five tickets one by one, and a 13-year-old's laundry is stranded in a hotel two cities away.

There is no managing that alone.

What I noticed — and what I share in the episode — is how strong the pull was to just handle it myself. Even when handling it was genuinely impossible. That impulse? That's not competence. That's conditioning. And recognizing it is the first step to putting it down.

Pillar 2: Being Present

Before I left, I did something that felt both obvious and terrifying: I paid a trusted colleague to run my inbox while I was gone. She's also seeing some of my patients, which is helping her as she builds her own practice. It's a genuine win-win.

And I have not logged in once.

For years, I've traveled with one eye on my inbox. Always "just checking." Never fully here. This trip, I decided that being present wasn't going to happen by accident — I had to build for it. I had to ask for help and pay for it without guilt.

Halfway through this trip, I can tell you: it was worth every penny.

Presence isn't a luxury. It's what makes the life you've worked so hard for actually mean something.

Pillar 3: Knowing What You Need

I didn't plan this trip — and for someone who usually plans everything, surrendering that control was its own kind of practice.

But I did sign up as the first aid person. I went to Target before we left and stocked up on everything: Tylenol, ibuprofen, allergy meds, gut meds, sunscreen, band-aids. Every day, someone taps me on the shoulder needing something — and I'm ready. That readiness settles something in my nervous system that allows me to actually relax everywhere else.

Is it a little perfectionist? Sure. But it's also knowing myself. Knowing that when I can contribute in a meaningful way, I feel more like myself. And feeling like myself means I can be more present, more joyful, more here.

That's not perfectionism running the show. That's wisdom.

The Bigger Picture

Perfectionism got you through medical school. It got you through boards and residency and every impossible shift you thought might break you.

But it will not get you present in your own life. It will not let you exhale on a Tuesday in Osaka. It will not let you watch your kid navigate a foreign city with wonder instead of anxiety.

You have to choose that. Deliberately. Again and again.

The question isn't whether you can let go. You've already proven you can handle anything. The question is whether you're willing to.

If any of this is resonating — if you're reading this and feeling that quiet ache of recognition — I'd love to talk. Book a free coaching discovery call and let's explore what it would look like for you to stop white-knuckling your life and actually start living it.

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You've already done the hard part. Let's make sure you get to enjoy it.

Listen to Episode 224: Traveling With Kids — A Recovering Perfectionist Story wherever you get your podcasts.*

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